Opening of article
You know what it’s like. Someone has seemingly pulled the plug and the power drains out. Your get up and go just got up and went. Life, the universe, everything – nothing matters as you shuffle through the clutter on the floor and flop into an unmade bed, your only refuge in a world you have given up on, that has seemingly given up on you.
Apathy is also used to describe indifference, such as to politics or NASCAR racing, but in a psychological context we are talking more like the opposite of motivation, the lack of will to go on and the inability to care about the consequences. ...
Return to article
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
4 comments:
This was an excellent article.
Every time I hear people talking about depression, it angers me because it is always about those who just feel a bit sad yet are perfectly functional and more than capable of cheering up with a dose of snake oil and a couple of meaningless platitudes.
I only feel anger or irritation if other people are around me, horror and panic at the thought of having to do anything or go anywhere.
I don't feel anything else, I have no interest in anything or anybody, I can't feel excitement, amusement, curiosity, happiness. I can't even feign interest anymore. I just want to avoid the world.
It is too late to do anything, I've been like this for years, becoming progressively worse over the last five. I've lost everything, even if they could fix me in the morning, I would have nothing to get up for so why would I bother?
It is like being paralysed in the brain, then your life evaporates and there is nothing left. You can't rebuild with nothing. You just get more disconnected as time goes by.
I can't muster up the energy to care, it is over anyway. Just got to accept it.
Hey, Bridget. I finally felt like I met someone who understands me. Paralysed in the brain, life evaporates - I can definitely relate. I suggest reading the article on dopamine in the Science section of my site. Targeting serotonin doesn't work for all depressions. Your brain may be needing an energy boost rather than a mood boost. It's something to ask a smart pdoc about.
Welcome to McMan and keep posting.
What if an afflicted individual doesn't want the so-called magic bullet(s)? I was (supposedly) diagnosed with BMD 10 years ago. I initially tried the drugs which I felt failed in getting to the root of the problem. At one point, it dawned on me that I was just a guinea pig for "shrinks" whose only method of aiding mentally/emotionally challenged individuals was linked to corporate drugdealers. I lived alone with this problem for 10 years now with no rainbow at the end of this damned yellow-bricked road in sight. I've contemplated, and attempted self-termination on several occasions and decided to try life once more. I went to college, got a degree and still I find myself stuck in the same spot of this stupid road. What's worse, is this so-called malady has allowed me to see the world, and it's virus-like occupants, perceptively different. This "truth" to which I, and a very select few, have been enlightened by has only fueled, or provided me with yet another justification for my suicidal thoughts/plans. I wanted to add that though I feel completely apathetic to life, I do not lack any emotion. Actually, it's the quite the opposite. I feel too emotional, but not for myself. I am completely apathetic to whatever happens to me. But I feel so much anger, frustration, and resentment over not being able to make a difference with all that is wrong with this world. What's worse is that there is no one I can talk to. People around me don't want to know what I am feeling, or planning. Doesn't anyone out there no how to help people like me without the damn drugs? I want to cry uncontrollably, but I don't know why!!!
Its so fricken good to hear that i am not the only one out there feeling apathetic. my saying goes, "apathy is the sympathy of my sanity." But of course thats not very true, or maybe its only partially true. i feel so damn blank. i cant even think of why i like dont like something or someone. not to mention knowing what i even do like in the first place. indecision has been weave into my brain without my approval. i know no life without its grasp on my opinions. but were talking about apathy not indecision or blankness. i feel nothing for my girlfriend when shes upset. I have to think, with my indecisive mind, "how am i supposed to think and how am i supposed to feel right now???" then i act upon whatever i decide im supposed to feel, if i ever do decide. bu ti know its all fake and tahts what kills me, i hate fake people. And look at me, the fakest of the fake!!! the opther day, my girlfriend said to me, "you should know how you feel. why dont you know how you feel???" she said some ohter stuff that, out of apathy, i don't remember. thats the other thing. i have the HARDEST time remembering important stuff. such as names, what i told who, what who told me, and when, and more that, well, i cant remember right now. i was in therapy yesterday, and i was asked why i liked my girlfiend so much. hell, i know theres a long list, but i couldnt say much more than, "shes really nice". okay, i think im done now...it felt so good to get that out there, even though noone will ever really take the time to read this, most likely...
Post a Comment